Thank you Thursa – and you are right – there was a feeling of being daunted by the prospect but not seeing who else could step into the breach I said Yes.So some self importance there! I am only just allowing myself to feel more and give credence to what I feel as well as my mind. It might be good for me to ask for time to consider in the future so I can really feel into the situation.
As it is unbeknownst to me there was a previous offer to help and so help is coming. And I am bearing the consequences and like you needing to find patience and compassion all round.